The Struggle Became Real #BasedOnTrueThoughts

 Right now I am in a studio and I see no one around me. I am allowed to be free and be myself. I wont have to be shy, the world belongs to me. The only thing wrong with this picture perfect moment is it was just a dream. Who can accomplish the majority of their dreams without having a set back. My big set back... Well, it is the fact that one day in a studio can cost up to thousands of dollars. I barely can spend money on myself anymore considering that money affects your living state and electricty, heat, and a warmth. And a nice big house full of family  is more than one night in an expensive studio. Do I wish money was no object? Yes, I sure do, but it is and I can not change that. I think it is pretty clear that if money was no object, I'd take every second I can possible, making my life as picture perfect as they would appear in dreams I have. I someday wish to become a lyricist , Rapper/Singer, or even a author/poet. It takes supplies to accomplish all these things. And these things take money. 

-I would put some of my lyrics up, but I'd rather not turn on a radio one day and here my custom lyrics.-

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WHEN HE WAS YOUNG AND ATTRACTIVE. MY FAVORITE OLD SONG

Buddy is My Friend

Time goes at its own paste. It can go slow at times and it can also go fast. Personally, when I am bored, time goes slow. When the time goes slow, I need something to do. What I do at this time is write. I love to write. I write lyrics, stories, poetry, etc. On a personal note, poetry is not my favorite but my teachers and friends seem to tell me that I have a gift.
And on a different note, I absolutely love writing lyrics. Music is something I wish to have a profession in if my shyness goes away. (I never sing for anyone other than my brother or sister. Not even my parents. I opened up to a girl once in the 4/5th grade and it was not till later that I realized that her bringing people around me to listen was them making fun of me. Them criticizing me. The one thing I come to fear the most today. Criticism.) Even though my heart has a hip hop beat slowly trying to teach the world its rhythm, I absolutely, positively, love writing stories more. I have never finished a book in my life. The highest I have ever gotten was to the 8th chapter in a notebook with 2-4 pages a chapter. It was called Buddy. Buddy was one of the books that I started in my freshman year that I have grown so passionate of. When I write books, like Buddy, I am not me. I am an
A-U-T-H-O-R creating art. I surprise myself at times. I never knew I could write so fluently. I always believed that the best books were the ones with the big confusing words that no one could understand. The type of words that are 7 letters long but have a million meanings depending on how you take it in. I now realize that it is truly the flow of the story. I just do not know why i feel so strongly about writing especially because I have never finished one. I guess it is just like when you do your best on a school project/assignment and you get it back just to see if your effort paid off, because I write stories just to read to myself personally and I love the feeling I get when I get wowed and want to reread my book. When I went to Westwood Middle School in the 8th grade, I met a girl. This girl was a ordinary girl, yet so different in a way. She was a high school. A junior to be exact. Just a student. But guess what? She published a book. She told us that it took hard-work and at times, she gave up, but she did it. Now I get to go home everyday, read my little book. My unfinished book, but cherished book, that reads:

Buddy 

                                                                                                         by: Nikita James

That is very symbolic to me. It was not just "by: Nikita James" to me. It was by "Nikita" the
A-U-T-H-O-R.